So, I set up a Supernatural club, for fans of Dean and Castiel, since they're my alltime OTP, and I've suddenly been aquainted with a friendly bunch of people who share the feeling



If you love Dean and Castiel / Destiel, we want you.

(And yes, I can hear certain people sobbing right about now.)

My mom thought it was a club about God and Religion. I didn't tell her it was for shipping gay angels and pie, which is probably on a list of things to go to hell for, right between 'stealing' and 'being Jack the Ripper'.

The groups system confuses me xD It explains so LITTLE.

Also...still no sleep. I tried, I tried really hard last night. And I was certain I'd sleep like a baby tonight, because Ethans operation seemed to have done him the world of good, and then *BAM* 'ost-op complications' and 'coma' are all I hear, and then I fall down a fucking stairs and I'm all shades of black and blue.
Ethan's got to pull through, right? I can't, I refuse to lose him. It's just not an option, after Alex.
gggaaaaah....I need pie.

Sorry for the journal spam. I just thought my first ever report-thing deserved an update.

On y-gal, no idea why! Won't tell me yet~ Probably for not clicking one of the hundred boxes.
Hopefully not for art theft, because like, thats not a road I want anyone to accuse me of travelling. And then I'll get bitchy, and probably get banned.
The picture, [link] (if you dont like blood, dont click! Not much, just a teeny bit) was a five minute sketch, then made to look pretty with some watercolor blood. People keep saying "No way you did that in 10 mins".

ANY of my classmates will tell you, being taught LifeDrawing by Laura Venables show's you how to draw as if your life depends on getting a pose down in under a minute.

Ethan's operation was a success in that he's not dead. He's still under though, so I won't get results till tomorrow.
I didn't sleep last night either. Counted the petals on the flowers of my pillowcase, 342. I think I'll never sleep, if I can do productive stuff like THAT more often hahahah

I worried myself sick~! I haven't slept in what, 3, maybe 4 days, and today, I'm a MESS. I shake and hurt, god I HURT. And of course including all that nasty stuff that involves being hunched over loo's and I just want painkillers, but there's none.

A little update on my friends situation, because everyones being really nice and asking how he is.
Well, he spent the entire of christmas day in a sort of medically induced coma, wonderful~!
He's got a broken collarbone, broken arm and several broken ribs, and tomorrow, he's got a lovely operation lined up to see if there's a way to make him walk again. So, the outlook isn't exactly amazing, but he's awake, and being fucking irritating and noble as only he can be. I still haven't got to see him, he's in hospital up the country, so just phonecalls so far.

Sorry if I sound bitchy or bitter, I'm just stressed. I'm really protective of this guy. Remember, in July, my boyfriend died? Well, Ethan was the one who was with him when it happened. So like, yeah, I should sleep, but I'm goddamn FRANTIC. I'm not even tired. I'm in pain, but not tired.

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALALALALALAL SORRY FOR BEING DEPRESSING.
I have 637738434 college things to do. Guess I can use my insomnia to do those :'D
Roll on the new year! I'm determined to make 2010 fucking AWESOME.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CHECK OUT AS SHE IS AMAZING. NO LIE.

Group huddle! MERRY CHRISTMAS. Hope you've all been having a wonderful christmas eve, I've spent mine wrapping last minute gifts~

I won't bore you with warnings and sad stories, but please, PLEASE be careful and party safetly. My best friend was in a bad accident an hour ago, a car lost control on the icy roads and went into the side of his car. He gets to spend Christmas in Hospital.

And if I wasn't enough of an emotional mess when I came on here... by
and my new icon , by Yeah, pretty much reduced me to a sobbing heap of goo.

But I'm focusing on the brighter side of things, like beautiful art of Simon and Morgan by .

have I ever mentioned I have the most wonderful friends?

Merry Christmas my loves.

Thanks for taking part everyone C:

To-Do List

0. Secret Santa Gift

1. Prussia!

2. Mukuro!

3. Roy Mustang!

4. SoraRiku

5. Jae Yong I -think-

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9. Akuroku